That distant rumbling...

.... it's the sound of DOOM!!!

Results on Monday.

The Dreams have started, varying from getting 20% for everything to the dreaded phone call from Big Law Firm telling me I can post my cheque for £31,000 any time I like.

I'm trying to proceed in denial at the moment. Unfortunately, flashbacks of the horror that was BLP just will not quit.

Therefore, doom.

You read it here first.

All drafted out

I'm not very happy about this exam. I don't think I particularly did myself justice, but I also didn't really revise very hard either and the whole thing is making me feel a bit uneasy. The trouble is there is no right answer so there is no way of knowing whether you got the marks or not.

I added up my supposed marks and think I probably managed 26 out of 50 at least, which for me is shocking. But it is a pass. And I will never know. I would imagine drafting is so subjective they can't fail people on the basis that their answers are different to the exact wording in the solution.

I do feel a little ashamed at not revising a bit more and being a little complacent about the exam. I heard last year that very good students often fail drafting because it is commonsense and subjective. Maybe I will fail. I don't want to fail. But I've always had that fear after hearing that... However I answered all the questions, and for once had enough time to check through and add some extra stuff that I feel improved my answers so hopefully that is something.

In response to anonymous who stated left this comment:

Is this diligent student thing serious? Or are you just being funny? I cant work it out. If you really were hard-working and scarily obsessive I'm not sure you'd share that fact with everyone. Give us a clue?

I'm not very clear on where anonymous got 'obsessive' from, diligent for sure, obsessive I hope not! Might I suggest you read some of my older posts, they may give you a bit of insight. Yes, it is completely serious and I'm not sure on why I wouldn't share it with everyone. I hate those people who work their backsides off and then when someone else says "oh did you work really hard for that" they go "oh no, half an hour". I work hard and I'm not afraid to admit it (although the drafting exam is not an example of this as I didn't work very hard at all, shame on me!). Hopefully it will pay off.

Drafting exam

This is tomorrow. I am having very mixed feelings about it.

This is an exam. Exams are supposed to require work. I had made no plans for the weekend and prepared to work.

However, I have found this entire subject very fluffy and difficult to revise. It all seems to obvious and I'm not really sure what I should be learning.

So I haven't done very much.

Which makes me feel guilty.

But then when I try to do some, I end up putting it all away again because it seems so easy and obvious and I feel like it really can't be that hard an exam.

This worries me. Drafting doesn't strike me as particularly difficult to pass, but I am a rather diligent student, so I can't help but feel guilty when I end up doing something else, and feel like maybe I should be afraid and should do more work and learn something else.

So I pick it up again and so the cycle continues.

Stupid.